Insights Part 1

I decided to separate my past weeks' details with some enlightenments that I had that I feel I should share.  I numbered this part 1 because I know there will be more.  

When I go through trials or hard times,  I learn many things spiritually, temporally and physically and to make the my trials fully meaningful it important to me to share those things that I have learned with my family and friends.  I also feel like our trials we go through are not just for ourselves but for those around us also which is one reason why I have chosen through this whole process to be as open as I have.  

Yesterday in church in primary, the children's sunday school, at the end of the meeting the children sang "How Firm a Foundation".  This song has always been one of my favorites because of the last verse phrase which reads...

7. The soul that on Jesus hath leaned for repose

I will not, I cannot, desert to his foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, I’ll never, no never,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake!

While we were getting ready to move to Idaho, I was having a really hard time with the move but I knew it was the right thing to do, and I, personally had many manistifations that it was the right thing to do at the time, but I was still struggling with it.  One Sunday in services I was singing this song and I told myself as I sang... " I'll never, no never, no never forsake thee".  This verse has become a life motto for me, something to live by.  Yesterday I was sitting in Primary and the second verse now hit me with full force.  Two days ago I was laying on the couch wondering many times how I was going to get through this time.  I have felt my Savior near as I have gone through this trial but now as I lay on the couch I couldn't but think I was going to physically get through this trial.  Today, Sunday, I was standing in Primary with almost 100% energy helping with the children.  What a miracle this is and what a wonderful God we have.  He is my strength, He is my foundation and with him I can stand both physically and spiritually.

3. Fear not, I am with thee; oh, be not dismayed,

For I am thy God and will still give thee aid.
I’ll strengthen thee, help thee, and cause thee to stand,
Upheld by my righteous, upheld by my righteous,
Upheld by my righteous, omnipotent hand.

Another experience I had this past week was when I wasn't feeling good, I was praying that that the kids would understand and I know how much I loved them as I went through this trial, and that the suffering I was going through was a sign of my love for them so that I could be with them for a longer time on this earth.  I also wanted them somehow to understand through this trial more fully our Savior's love for them, and to feel Him close.  As I was saying my prayer, my thoughts turned to the garden of Gethsemane and the Cross,  I thought of our Savior's suffering for us.  Here I am suffering a little compared to our Savior, and He did that because of His love for us.  You can physically see my suffering today, we didn't see our Savior suffer, but through my suffering I pray that the children we have a sense of what our Savior suffered for them because He loves them and knows them personally. 

I know that the Lord knows us and loves us and wants us to succeed in this life.  He may not be able to take away the hard times in this life but He places people and supports around us to help us to get through our trials.  He enlightens our minds to know how to help ourselves to get through our trials, and through His enabling power of the atonement we can find the power to make through what seems as impossible.